The inner turmoil within him found no peace.
The victories of yesterday could not be remembered.
He wailed, He wept, He cried.
Yet, there was nothing he could do.
His final outcry was.....
God let Your will and not mine be done.

even Jesus learned obedience through God's chastening.

There were so many times in my life, i remember ranting, crying and even wailing before God. Hoping that all these will move Him to stop the work of chastening in my life. i did all i could to plead Him to stop. But the verse that came to my mind is, "not my will but yours be done."

i would have lost heart, unless i have believed that i would see the goodness of God in the land of the living.