A very beautiful crystal was twriling in a dark room.
The sides were reflecting a rainbow of colors.
In close proximity was a white beam of light.

Then i heard the Lord said,
You are the crystal,
I am the light.
You reflect beautiful light because you are near me.

Want to be the light of the world,
First find your Source.


He continued, Deora you are my pearl.
In the parable of the hidden pearl,
You are the pearl.
I am the Merchant who sold everything to buy you!!
i emptied heaven of the Son and the Holy Spirit for your sake!!

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOo...
With a GOd like ours,
we never have to fail that He will not protect us!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WWWOOOOOOOWWWWWWWWOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
Riding on the grace and joy of the Lord.
JOin me!

Just for BIJIA!!

haha.. see when you are going to reply to this post!!

When are you coming back ah?? must catch up lei!!
visited your bloc.
Gorgeous, reserved genius indeed!!
haha
CAtch up really soon ya??

See what i ate when i am on my mission trip??

Christianity is like a very very long stairway that leads right to the heavens. When we first arrive at the foot of the stairway, we were so glad. We took a first step but the stairs cried out, "overweight!" We looked and saw the excess baggages of materialism, worldiness, pride and fleshliness. Decided, we threw one baggage of pride away and took the first step. the step was beautifully decorated. we looked forward to the next step. oops, overweight again. we threw a baggage of materialism. it went on and on until we reached the 7th step. This is our most precious bag of self-will. It is so precious that we have tied it to our heart. If we are going to untie it, it is going to hurt...

will you throw it down.
Will you say, "If possible take this cup away. If not, let your will be done and not mine."

or will you step down.... one step down and you will roll downward..

A picture from God when i was praying one day.

These are my mission team friends!!

The inner turmoil within him found no peace.
The victories of yesterday could not be remembered.
He wailed, He wept, He cried.
Yet, there was nothing he could do.
His final outcry was.....
God let Your will and not mine be done.

even Jesus learned obedience through God's chastening.

There were so many times in my life, i remember ranting, crying and even wailing before God. Hoping that all these will move Him to stop the work of chastening in my life. i did all i could to plead Him to stop. But the verse that came to my mind is, "not my will but yours be done."

i would have lost heart, unless i have believed that i would see the goodness of God in the land of the living.

NEW WINESKIN

Today is a very special day. Something very important happened to my heart. The light of truth dawned upon me! All along, i am the prisoner of myself. i kept crying out for deliverance. Yet, i was the one who locked myself up. Who can let me out except for I? The key is in my hands. The Lord pointed it out to me once but my screams blocked out His voice. Today, i found my key and i have let myself out. Suddenly, the lost passion came back. The feeling of passion fills me once more. Wow!! i never knew it feels so good to be passionate for everything in life. My eyes are unveiled and i saw what it means to put off the old man so that the new man can be put on. A new wine in a new wineskin. This wine will fill my heart with abundant and complete joy.

The 1st level of joy: salvation. Where the burden of sin is lifted up.
The 2nd level of joy: Dreaming. Discovering the meaning of your life. Live and not exist
The 3rd level of joy: Fulfillment and Fruition. Living beyond success into significance
It will all culminate to...... the Wedding banquet of the the Lamb and HIs bride.

Though i have not seen Him.
i Love Him comletely.

Fear really do make things look BIGGER than it really is and it veils our eyes from reality.

i don't want to lock myself up again.
What can i do??
I must RENEW my mind.
I must SEEK the Lord.
I must be UNDER COVER.

i have greatness in my hands.
When Jesus comes back, i want to hear Him say of me, "good and faithful servant."
i must invest the talents He has entrusted into my hands.
i must look forward and SEE!

my name is DEORA.

Who is Deora.. for a long long time.. i wanted to know the meaning behind my name.
Then i found out that DEO means GOD in Latin.
That day, i heard the Lord told me...
Thats right!! YOu are mine!! Even your name bears my signature.

What does it mean to belong to Jesus??
It means strength.
It means joy.
It means victory.
It means fruitfulness.
It means ALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Why should a man starve when there is bread?
Why should a man die of thirst when there is water?
Why should a man be hopeless when he has the LORD.

hahahahaha i will laugh and be joyous all the days of my life because the LOrd is my God!!

God, my literary skill is too shallow.. i express my worship with my heart.
May all who reads join me in the laughter of faith!!
Lets worship our God!!

Isa 51:3
The Lord will comfort Zion
The Lord will comfort her ruin places
The Lord will make her wilderness like Eden
And her desert will be like the garden of the Lord
Joy and gladness will be found in it.
Thanksgiving and the voice of melody.

Who will comfort Zion? ........... The Lord will. Not any man but the Lord Himself.

What is in Eden? ............ What do you want in Eden?
i want tears... Tears of thanksgiving, gratitude, praise.
i want fruitfulness... A land that is uncursed and whatever is sowed will reap a 100 fold return.
I want a land where God will fill the empty spaces in it. Lord, your hands led me to where i am. Take me to where you want me to be.
Show me the apple trees.
Show me the tree of life.
Show me the forbidden tree that i may not eat of its fruits.

If i have a song to sing. Let me sing it with my life.

A broken spirit and a contrite heart. These oh Lord, You will not despise!!
The greatest gift You can ever give me is a heart that is new and pure. One that beats for and after You. Nothing matches up to it Lord.

The greatest gift of my life came somewhere last year. While we were singing the song , "Create in me a new heart", i saw the hands of the Lord holding a very beautiful heart that is emitting radiance and glory. He lowered it slowly and placed it inside of me. he said, "Deora, i give You this heart.' i was so afraid... So afraid of breaking this beautiful and tender heart. What heart is this? A heart for the Lord? A heart for thr lost? a heart for wandering sheep? What heart is it?? A heart that is new and of God.