Went through another precious life lesson which revealed the condition of my heart. Unlike jesus who is a sheep who willingly lays down His life, i am a goat that struggles to accept the will of God over my life. Instead of sitting on God's word and his decision, i found myself struggling and reacting to the circumstance i was in. Feel very ashamed of my reaction. But now, i am willing to obey and be willing. I am ready to say. Lord, not my will but yours be done. Even if it runs in contrary to my heart's desire, i will obey it.

To be able to hear from God is such a great privilege. Yet, like Jonah, i chose to run away from Him. Oh man.. How i grieve the spirit of GOd. With gifting comes responsibility. With the gift of being able to hear from God, the responsibility is to obey and respond to His call. Hmm... Seemed like the more i hear, the more i get to crucify my flesh. Hee.. Actually, i think i am looking more like Jesus these days. when i was younger in the Lord, i just follow my heart's desire. But now, i do according to His voice. :) My sheep hear my voice. Yeah.. i really want to be a sheep of God, wearing the mark of Christ. Jesus had three holes in his palm and feet respectively. when God looked at my heart, i will also have holes that speaks of the crucifixtion of Christ.

God, hear my cry! I just want to be MORE LIKE YOU!!