Watching Prayers Being ANSWERED

Watching prayers being answered by God is one of the fulfilling moments of the Christian walk. Not only does it show the world that God is real but also that my prayer is in the centre of God's will.

When i was asked, "Which phase of life do you enjoy the most?", my reply is undoubtedly - NOW! Never have i felt freer. Really freedom comes not from freewill but being at peace with God and myself. Only through many turmoils in life that PEACE and freedom can ever be defined. Freedom hinge less on the circumstance than the heart. This, i have learned. I am glad to have found this pathway.

The pathway away from the other. A narrow pathway that had led me to God. The other pathway will be ventured by the other. Different routes for different ones but may it lead to the same final destination. I am happy in my pathway and i pray the other speaks also of joy and bliss.

As we pass through different phases in life, judgements dwindle while empathy rises. It is no longer possible to encourage people with mere words of motivation wihtout testimony or compassion.

My friend was sharing with me about how her husband dreads the thought of going to work. He walks up every morning, dragging himself to office to fulfill another day of duty and obligation. Yet, all these are nothing but mere actions. How long can the sense of responsibility drive him to work? Without passion, life becomes meaningless.

My friend is an achieved woman. Yet, deep down, she wonders if she would ever find a soulmate, with whom she can walk through the rest of her life with. Every weekend and festive season is a dread to her. The loneliness of the night coupled with the emptiness of her soul lures her into depression.

Growing up, these feelings are no longer foreign to me. Sometimes, the montony of life really drives you nuts and you really do feel that to die is gain and to live is Christ. What the Lord has to say about this is that, "Deora, life is short, you never know what will happen to you tomorrow. Don't waste your youth, your healthy days away." I know the Lord is calling me to training - cultivation of spiritual disciplines. Irregardless of how i feel, i have to move on, doing constructive things with my time. If one of my precious is my time, i will give it to counselling those who are in need. In a world where sin is present, the wounded are everywhere. there are many sea shells on the shore but to that one, i encourage, i made a difference. Just as how Jo has made a difference in my life, i want to make a difference in people's lives. God, give me a heart that can feel the way you feel, a mind that can fathom the deep. To those whom you give to me, give me passion. Not our of responsibility but passion.

So thankful that Stella brought me with her to Genting and KL to negotiate deals last month. I met the cream of businessmen (or at least some were by designations). Some spoke with intellect while others try to sound like they are a force to be reckoned with.

However, this one family i met in KL really warmed my heart and contributed to 50% to the frutifulness of the trip. They looked like a simple family but throughout dinner, there was so much joy and bliss. This family is enveloped by God's joy, peace and hope! Eddie and his wife, Jane, are simply adorned and petite. Its not hard to miss them in a crowd. yet, the words that poured forth from their mouth were endowed with wisdom from above. It is not hard to recognise that this is a God-fearing family over the mere 4 hours together.

Jane is a petite and simple-looking woman. Yet, the words that poured forth from her mouth were so filled with wisdom, i know she must be 10 times bigger on the inside than she is on the outside. Like Jane, my boss, Stella is also not one who pays lots of attention to dressing and grooming. Yet, she is a woman, who speaks wisdom and has a heart of gold. She may not be the richest boss around but everywhere she goes, favour of God and men was evident.

Many friends told me that a room is quiet till i enter. I thank God that he has endowed upon me SOUNDS of JOY. But i am not contended to be like all the others who stand out in a crowd but holds nothing in their bosoms. I want to be like Mary in the bible, be like Stella , Be like Jane, be like Sun. I may not be everyone's favourite, may not be popular, may not stand out but yet possess the wisdom, grace and love of my ALMIGHTY JESUS! Only this will make this world a better place. The rest is but a passe.

Someone once lamented about the abuse of blogs. Blogs were outlets of complaints for many. Full of misery and sorrow. I cannot deny that it had become the vehicle to disemminate sorrows and frustrations, even for gossips and scandals.

But at this instant, i really need that which is inside of me be release - FRUSTRATION!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

All the assignments, work and routines are driving me nuts! Alluding to the analogy of the Potter and the Clay, i must be the vase on teh shelf. learning routine and contentment from everyday's life. Hai.. Other than prayer and God, i guess no one can alleviate my frustration.

God help me!!!

Commemorating my birthday of 2007

Many times, people define birthday presents as gifts received on that particular day of birthday. But i feel that birthday gift is the accumulation of everything that happened in the past year. This is in sync with what my cell leader, Jo chua, once said, "Making someone feel special is not what you do on a special day but the little things you do everyday for that person." Every year,the state of deora and who deora is gets better than the previous. Every year, i see a leap in faith and growth in some areas. This is the fulfillment of the promise, "The days of the righteous gets brighter."

Commemorating my bday this year:
1) Never felt closer to jesus
2) Stepping into my vocation
3) Great Boss, colleague and working environment in ServiceWorks
4) Great cell leader and cell group!
5) Alot more new and quality friendships forged.

Of course there are some wishes not fulfilled. But nevertheless my God is GREAT! I have learnt how to take No as an answer and that NO probably is the best gift HE has for me!

"Why did God insist in using Jonah?"

"Today, if you her the voice of the Lord, do not harden your heart".
This scripture tells us that if we do not respond to the voice of God, there may come a day where you will not hear His voice anymore.

I remembered in my bible school year, Pst Ulf once gave an altar call for those called into full time ministry. He said, "if you know that is you, stand up right now. Nobody needs to close their eyes because when jesus called Peter and his disciples, he did it in the presence of all. This will be the last time God is calling you."

God will keep nudging your heart. But there will come a time when he will call you one last time. But when i looked at Jonah, i marvel a why God insist on using him and not someone else. God could have easily given someone else the message but He insist on using Jonah. WHY?? i am still searching for an answer.

THE PLEDGE OF MY HEART.

The bible says, "iron sharpens iron." BUt how do you know if you are rubbing against iron or wood? It may look like iron but the quality differs. I guess the only way is to check your heart and seek the guidance of the Holy Spirit.

The best thing about working is knowing that you are in the centre of God's will and touching the marketplace for him. However, the battle field is everywhere. Probably, the greatest devil i ever fought against is the one that resides in me.

Nonetheless, i thank God that He still loves me for who i am and his grace is sufficiently for me to change. While my circumstance has changed, my heart will not. The cry for God will overshadows all the cries of the world. I WILL REMEMBER THE MIGHTY ARMS OF THE LORD who delivered me from the bondage of Egypt. I WILL REMEMBER THE DAYS IN THE WILDERNESS where i am consecrated to him. As i scale higher with Jesus, my heart will remain pure like the dove and wholehearted like David. Solomon's wisdom is incomparable to the heart of David. But the Lord said, be as wise as serpent and as pure as dove. Show wisdom in doing good.